Undergoing Therapy

Undergoing Therapy

Alive and well here in Warner Robins, Georgia, trying to make sense of it all.  I feel completely disconnected from anything or anyone that matters, while at the same time knowing I am one with All that Does, Has, and ever Will matter.  It can be a bit confusing, which I should go ahead and admit, is the exact term that sums up my mental state for the last week or so.

I have been paying a lot of attention to the media lately, specifically, MSNBC.  Although I have only watched recreationally, my interest in politics and government has sort of forced me to watch the network for the past two years, with hopes to somehow get on the frequency.  However, it seems that the more I think I understand what's going on, the more I realize I have no idea--and yet, I still know it all!  That's just it in a nutshell for now, but the essential, detailed stimulating elements of my recent confused mental state would probably make readers think I'm a lunatic so I'll just spare you all. 

At the end of it, if I may switch gears, I suppose "I just wanna be successful" like the song says.  I can go on and on about this and that, and tit for tat about skits and skats, but I just simply want to win.  This blog is about me taking a courageous step in the direction of Heaven.  Hence, I am infected--as the majority of us are--with what can be considered a dangerous disease, which is this compulsion to compete.  It's almost like I have to compete with everyone in every situation.  What the f*** am I competing for?  I know I want power, but wait...don't I already have it? Well what will I do when I begin to obtain it in a way that allows me to really influence the masses?  How will I conduct myself?  Am I someone that should even have that much power?  These are obviously the types of questions I've asked myself, and in contemplating these things, I've realized that competition is not necessary for me.  Thus, I am not a threat to anyone, nor do I feel threatened; I am no longer a competitor, yet still constantly competing...I am at peace. 

P.E.A.C.E.